she just wants to be loved

gosh, i feel horrible. and self-centered. i didnt care enough about your feelings, did i? i mean, i didnt even notice dat you were unhappy till you pointed it out.. n all the while i thought you were pretending to be mad at me for well, overlooking you in the bus earlier...

*sigh* im sorry im such a terrible fren.. :( i have GOT to be more sensitive to others from now on...

how far

gosh i LOVE kevin covais's voice!! i get the goosebumps just listening to him sing.. i mean like, literally..

n kellie pickler

is my fav female contestant so let's hope the both of them get into the finals, shall we? :)

How far do I have to go to make you understand

I wanna make this work so much it hurts, but I just can't

Keep on giving, go on living with the way things are

So I'm gonna walk away

And it's up to you to say how far

and she tries

YAY!!! i finally got the cd i wanted for a yr!!!

:):) thanx pa!! hav i ever mentioned how much i love youuuu.. hehe

yesterday was funnnnn... aunty joyce a.k.a cool aunty (name given by benny.. haha) brought us for dinner at marche *smacks lips, drools* too bad i ate earlier.. nvm, there's always room for dessert!! :D hehe the banana crepe, tiramisu and oreo irish smth smth (cant rmb the name -.-) was just soooo goooooddddd.. i wanna go there again!! hehe

then on our way back, ashwin called to ask to join them for a movie so... being me, i guess u could tell i went.. hehe.. pink panther wasnt too great.. some parts were just too predictable.. others were funny at first, okay the 2nd time but plain boring at the third when they repeated it.. hmm but it's quite funny la overall.. id give it a 2 1/2 stars.. it's been a while since i last watched a movie so it was still a treat anyway :)

oh yeah, lesson learnt during the movie : DONT ever drink water while watching a comedy.. im sure u can predict the consequences.. haha sorry g!! -.- so paisehhh

even the wrong words seem to rhyme

haha okayy, i think my prev post sort of caused some confusion.. so im gonna get this straight - i DONT like him.. haha.. seriously.. i dun even think he's dat cute.. haha

i gotta let you know i think that we have destiny...

haha so not. nono we DONT have fate... i hope.. haha

i mean, even if we do run into each other everywhere we go, it doesnt mean we're destined to be together.. haha charlie i noe wat u're thinking!! u're gonna say it's fate.

i dun careeeee... it's just coincidence.. haha

yes, it's a coincidence i saw him at asia club today, n then at the cafeteria, n at the guard hse on the way to kiosk, n at the guard hse again on our way out n AGAIN at the bus stop later.. haha so wat if we happened to b at the same place at the same time for five times in one day? haha yeah n so wat if we bumped into each other at least once a day??? haha.. it so doesnt mean a thing.. even though he's in a different course n the timing n places of our classes r diff, so the chances of us meeting at all is quite small, it still doesnt show dat we're fated. hahaha.. things like dat only happens in movies kayy..

haha ill only admit it's fate if i umm well, run into him everyday for the rest of the week.. haha which we're not going to :P

inkblot test

Li-Mae, your subconscious mind is driven most by Self-protection

You are emotionally reserved and private. You typically keep your cool during arguments and rarely reveal personal information that you later regret. On the surface, you appear very serene. Inside however, you may sometimes feel detached or disconnected from the world around you. The upside of this is that you are not the sort of person to easily lose your temper. You think about things rationally rather than get swept up in emotions. You also remain calm in the toughest of situations. Your psyche is very unique; the more you learn about it, the more you will understand who you really are.

haha kayyy...i think the first part's the total opposite -.-

strangers...

funny how some insignificant people that u see everyday later plays a more important part in ur life when u get older...

i mean like, in harry potter, sirius black was casually mentioned in the first book as the guy who lent hagrid his motorbike but in the third book, harry discovered dat sirius is his godfather..

okay, im gonna stop it wif harry now cos i can already picture some ppl rolling their eyes..

so yup, back to wat i said.. for some reason, since fm1 i've always rmbed yohan (maybe it's cos he entered charlie's class later in the yr) but nv really spoken to him n trust me, i dun usually rmb ppl so it's kindda weird i rmbed him seeing dat he's just another stranger.. n now he's mun's bf.. hehe.. seems like, some things r like, pre-planned huh..

oh n then there's lin-dy as well.. met her at kristyn's party in fm1 but yeah, nv really thought much about her except dat she's krissy's fren n dat our paths will probably nv cross again n yeah, now we're "triplets"... hahaha...

not to mention jinn.. i used to c him at parties n stuff, but i'll go like, wat a poser... *roll eyes* haha kay so i kindda got part of dat wrong but yeah.. n now we're in the same col.. haha

n ashwin n sarv too! they were like, just another neighbour to me but now they're my "bodyguards who serenade me home everyday" *winks at sarv* hahahah

someone once said "strangers are just friends we haven't met"
[kay i hope i got the quote right cos i saw it 2 yrs ago -.-]

this goes to show dat the quote's right, doesnt it? ;)

kay since im supposed to b doing my hw now.. better get started on it.. FAST!! *rushes off to do hw*

caught in a moment

haha pok just asked me a really (well, not weird) but surprising question.. how would u like ur bf to propose to u?

kay, since pok asked dat qn, her ans can b first.. :P

he'll bring her on a cruise, n just before they reach a waterfall, he'll kneel down on the deck (must be sunset) wif a bouquet of flowers (any kind except ugly ones of course) n bring out a dunno-how-many-carat DIAMOND ring.. haha she doesnt mind if it's a sailboat too.. provided dat it's his.. haha.. n after dat, they'll sit on the deck n stare at the stars...

next is.. charlie's!!

on their anniversary, he'll take her out for dinner by the beachside in a very nice n romantic restaurant (of course candlelight dinner) n then he'll surprise her wif gifts and flowers... after dinner, they'll take a stroll on the beach n under the moonlight, he'll spell out "will u marry me" wif rose petals n propose wif a bouquet of roses wif a diamond PLATINUM ring (not necessarily big, but must b really pretty, wif the words "____ loves shar lyn" carved inside) tied to one of the roses..

haha fine.. the moment u've all been waiting for... *drumroll*

MINE!! hahaha jk..

kay, first of all, he'll take me out for a really romantic dinner, and after dat, he'll bring me to all the places that we've been together and we'll just well, talk about bittersweet memories.. then, he'll take me to the place where we first met and together wif a bouquet of lilies (hehe i just LOVE lilies) and a diamond ring, he'll spring the question.. oh yeah, it'll be more romantic if this all takes place under a star strewn sky n if he sets up the words "marry me, honey" wif pretty lightings and all (just like in armed reaction :D).. hehe.. oh AND it must b a surprise of course.. preferably this happens like, just when he's about to move away due to some job offer or sumthing n i'll b all sad, thinking dat this is the last time we'll b together n cherishing the moment even more BUT in the end, he decides that he can lose his job but not me :)

hahaha n to think i called pok demanding.. kay pok n charlie! if u wanna add more, can tell me n ill edit my post cos i keep adding to mine too.. hehehe

happy vday!

yay! thanx to dinesh, i got home in record time! :) n in comfort tooo!! accompanied by great music.. hahaha not bad ah, we hav the same taste in music.. oh ya, ur driving's so chun man.. wanna go for a ride again!! wheeeeeee

anyway, HAPPY VDAY PPL!

thank goodness you didnt give me anything.. ahhhh... was preparing a hole to bury myself in rather than thinking of lines of rejection.. haha maybe it's cos i was so cold to you yesterday.. oh welll.. *doesnt feel sorry at all* :P

gosh jas, we've got the same taste in guys! i mean, their personality dat is.. i cant believe i found someone who likes nick cheung too!! hahaha the big nose guy :) no wonder we're triplets.. haha

it's raining now.. hav i ever mentioned how much i love the rain? there's nothing better than walking in the rain (as long as there's no thunderstorm dat is) n it makes everything looks so clean n fresh...

everytime I tried giving up on you, I'd see you and fall for you all over again...

love actually

if a guy does this for me, i swear i'll melt.. haha

of course, dat guy must b cute.. hahaha :P

thanx poots for the pic!!

please.

kay, whatever you do tmr, PLEASE dont give me a gift or like, declare anything.. id just die on the spot if u do it in front of the class or sumthing.

hooray for yu jin, my valentine tmr!! haha :D i bet if i told anyone "yu jin's my valentine", they'd probably hear it as "eugene" n think dat u're a guy.. haha let's go double dating wif "cousin" and jas jas tmr kay! ;)

names

this is damn cool.. got it from isa's blog

first name: Li-Mae

Your first name of Li-Mae gives you the desire for responsibility and takes you into practical pursuits.[haha yeah.. i wanna b a heart surgeon]

You would excel in work of a technical nature where concentration and attention to detail are important. [haha great! does this include heart surgery?! :)]

Whatever you undertake, you have the patience and determination to do well. [yup or i wouldnt STILL wanna b a doctor now.. trust me, it's tough work]

You feel a sense of security in positions of responsibility where progress is made through systematic, step-by-step procedures. [hehe.. how true]

However, you lack vision and you could become too involved in technical details, system, and routine. [uh-oh.. dont like the sound of it]

You do not readily adjust to changes in your routine. [hehe.. guilty!]

Although the name Li-Mae creates the urge to be reliable and responsible, we emphasize that it limits your versatility and scope, tuning you to technical details. [uh-oh!]

This name, when combined with the last name, can frustrate happiness, contentment, and success, as well as cause health weaknesses in the elimination system, and through worry and mental tension.[yeah it's mentally exhausting, studying bioscience]

oh well, this is pretty accurate! try it out!! http://www.kabalarians.com/index.cfm

*sigh* o's results wasnt too great.. pok smsed me during math class n i just HAD to read it.. *sniff* total opp of prelim results.. oh well... still better than expected.. at least i didnt fail anything!! (esp geogss n hist!) n ive got a distinction for physics!! amazing!! totally didnt expect dat :) my only consolation's dat at least i did well in wat counts (bio chem phy) since those r my 3 main subjects now in SAM n it's the only ones dat really counts for med.. :):)

kay kay hav to go cheer myself up!! wheeeeeeeeeeee

hear me

kay, i must start this entry wif sumthing amusing to get ease off the butterflies, no wait, DRAGONS (hungarian horntails if u would believe it... ) in my stomach

yeah anyway, i was walking down the stairs today when someone stepped on my shoe (*sob* my new skechers shoes!) n immediately i thought it was wenkie cos he was directly behind me earlier.. wat i didnt expect tho, was dat he apologised so quickly dat before i realised it, i said "idiot" really loudly so it was sounded like i called him an idiot even after he said sorry.. so for those who know me really well, im sure u could predict wat happened rite?! yup.. u guessed it! it was just some poor innocent fella who didnt mean to step on my shoe!!! hahaha sorry guy! i tried to explain after dat but u were in such a hurry n i was laughing so hard, i bet u didnt understand wat i was saying.. -.-

oh n thank you everyone!! for those who smsed, called, gave n treated!! :D i had a lovely time!! really!!! :') im so touched!! never expected so many to rmb!!

*sigh* now dat im done blogging the great parts, back to the dreaded ones...

O's RESULTS R COMING OUT TMR!!!

*prepares for own funeral*

on a separate topic,

u're sweet, but it would've been sweeter if it wasnt a fwded msg -.- bet u send that to everyone on their bdays >.<

torn

got my driving license today.. in a way i was excited cos ive been wanting to drive all my life.. feel like going for a drive now... -.-

ironically, i wish dat they'd extended the age limit for driving to 21 like theyve been wanting to do for yrs.. *sigh* anyway i knew dat this day would come so... wasnt as disappointed as i wouldve been if i found out on the spot..

oh n ashwin, if u're reading this, thanx again yeah for today :)

kay kay better go now.. got TWO quizzes tmr -.- not to mention a PILE of undone hw to tackle

beautiful disaster

He drowns in his dreams
An exquisite extreme I know
He's as dumb as he seems
And more heaven than a heart could hold
And if I try to save him
My whole world could cave in
It just ain't right
It just ain't right

Oh when I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster

His magical myth
As strong as with I believe
A tragedy with
More damage than a soul should see
And do I try to change him
So hard not to blame him
Hold on tight
Hold on tight

Oh 'cause I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster

I'm longing for love and the logical
But he's only happy hysterical
I'm waiting for some kind of miracle
Waited so long
So long

He's soft to the touch
But afraid at the end he breaks
He's never enough
And still leaves more than I can take
Oh cuz I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster

He's beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster

how to lose a guy in 2 days

okay, i've decided to rename operation "get rid of mr stalker" to "HOW TO LOSE A GUY IN TWO DAYS" muah haha.. yup, 2 days cos i hav to get rid of him before my bday.. the more he does, the worse i feel about letting him down.. sorry la, u're really a nice guy.. just not my type kay.. im sure u'll find a wayyyyy better girl out there...

so back to...

How To Lose A Guy In TWO Days
by sspp n ssbb

1. ignore all his smses
2. make up some lame excuse on msn to avoid talking to him, hoping dat he'd eventually get the picture
3. and if he STILL doesnt get the hint, ignore him until he stops
4. act really disgusting in front of him (thanx ashwin for the tip dat guys cant stand disgusting behaviour.. haha)
5. bugs HIM back till he realises how irritating it is
6. make it REALLY obvious dat u like someone else
7. n if dat ignorant fella STILL wouldnt let it go, gush on and on about the guy u like until he gives up
8. as a last resort, get one of ur guy frens to pose as ur bf

kay, i noe u're thinking, why 8?! haha cos it's CNY n 8's a lucky number!!! hahaha fine, im being lame.. it's cos sspp n i r just too lazy to think anymore at this time of the night.. i mean, morning.. haha

all right! let's keep our fingers crossed dat they'll work kay!! shall keep u updated in 2 days' time!!

thank youuuuuuuuuuu!!!

great i FINALLY hav the chance to blogggggggg!!

okay, this is SO weird, i just HAV to blog about it first..

[on the way to melaka]

me: guess who im gonna meet in spore?!

family: who?

me: ashwin -.-haha he's there now on hol..

dad: u'd better not hang around him so much, later u fall in love wif him

me: -.-''''''''' *thinks to self* wahhh if like dat, i probably fall in love wif like, more than 10 guys already!!

[much much later]

me: wahhhh!! im so hungry!! but for some reason, i dont feel like eating!!

dad: thinking too much about ashwin is it?

me: wat the - ?!?!?!

dat was SOOOO weird rite?! i think my parents r getting overly suspicious wif the guys i hang out wif, kay.. i mean like, so wat if ive been in an all girls' sch n living in an all girls' hostel for the past 3 yrs?! it's not like im suddenly gonna get a zillion bfs or anything rite to make up for those yrs.. sheesh -.-' i mean first it was raof, now ashwin, next probably sarveen.. i mean, who next?!

okay to happier stuff!!
thanx cheese, claire, pok, poots n yong JIE!!! u guys r the sweetest!! :') i'll never EVER forget dat moment in my entire life!!! *sniff sniff* oh n thanx to aunty amy too!!! :D

i totally didnt suspect a thing kayy.. even tho it was SOOOOO obvious.. -.- first cheese, pok, poots, yong JIE n i had dinner at swensen's! (the banana crumble RAWKS man) n then everyone left super early, like about 2100?! but they had sch the next day so i wasnt dat surprised.. oh then my parents picked pok n me up about an hr later n when we got to pok's apartment, my mum was like, jessica! where's ur pool???? me: y r u so desperate to c her pool?! *gives curious look* mum: just wanna c lahh!! me: it's just a standard pool lah!!

then we bump into aunty amy who was walking bubbles! n when i hurried over to pat bubbles, aunty amy practically ran all the way to the pool n i was like, HUH?! is she mad at me for piercing my ear?!

n when we got to the pool area, there was a birthday cake on the table n i was like, ehhhh! someone celebrating their bday here! n then...

SURPRISE!!!! *cheese, claire, poots n yong JIE jumps out*

me: *stunned* waaaaaahhhhh? HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

seriously, thanx guys!! dat was so thoughtful!! dat was one of the sweetest things anyone's ever done for me!! c lah, now u make me miss u all over again!! boohoo!!

sorry chee jia! didnt mean to drag u along in the pool! didnt realise i was holding on to u till after we got out -.- hope ur phone's okayy.. :(

shall post up the pics after u all send to me..

okay, it's 0137 n im supposed to b doing my hw so.. shall continue some other time!!

P.S. thanx everyone n zab too for the present!! n sorry for making u guys wait for over an hr for me!!! >.<